My wife Jackie and I just finished a wonderful week with some Texas
friends in the mountains of Colorado. And as I typically do I sought out
another high mountain to climb before the week ended. One of our friends and I
decided to tackle 13000' Notch Mountain, not as popular as the oft-climbed
14ers that we and others typically choose, but a climb with glorious views of Mount of the Holy Cross
nonetheless.
But as soon as we began to climb I was reminded again of the rich senses, impressions, thoughts
and emotions I would experience and desperately needed, ones that I miss so often in everyday life.
Let me share a few.
We began our climb in the dark as the wafting smell of the pines
woke my mind and soul to what was yet to come. I couldn't help remember that
unique and fresh scent that had so captivated me even as a child. You can't find it just anywhere.
Minutes
later the light
began to rise in the east and the coming sun appeared as a mountain halo
soon
to glow like a bright ball of welcomed warmth. It was a special and
fleeting moment. And yet it is easy to miss these simple, mysterious
yet wonderful experiences that cannot be bought. I am
glad we did not run past this one only eager to conquer our goal.
Soon one sunlit ridge became dozens and it was difficult to take
it all in. The majesty of God, always present, seemed inescapable now and we felt again that we had entered a holy place.
But
the world of the mountains is rarely one of mere joy. The
trail soon became steep, the footing rocky and the air thin. My
breathing felt more labored, my legs ached and every step seemed heavy.
The switchbacks
were relentless and appeared unending for a time. Rocks were ubiquitous
and
intense concentration was required to continue without injury.
My body was fighting the mountain now and I knew from experience
that my mind and spirit must engage my movement and urge me to not quit the climb. My
physical energy drained quickly as I sought for something deep within to
prevent me from turning around. And yet in the middle of the struggle I felt
oddly invigorated discovering an ultimately powerful determination within to keep
going and to conquer this huge task in front of us.
There was a deep passion to overcome that I both hated and welcomed but that I rarely encounter in my daily life.
I again thought how often I prefer the easy road, the
comfortable and the familiar and miss how something greater always grows and changes
me. I realized that there is something almost more impacting in the
journey, in the climb far beyond reaching the summit.
I learned anew that sometimes, most of the time, the way to
overcome our mountains is to just survive one more stretch of the trail even
when our lungs burn and our strength seems gone. This is also the time when
perhaps God's nearness is felt most, when He both gives us a boost but whispers
simultaneously, "Keep going."
But then often comes that special moment when you take those
last steps to the summit, with breaths still labored, feet aching but you know you
have made it. As I like to say, "The view from the top is worth it."
And it was. We experienced another sacred setting with only us, the quiet and
God's beautiful creation there as our companions.
When summits are achieved we are free to enjoy them, embrace the
thrill of victory stolen from the agony of defeat.
However, we cannot live on the summit. We must go down. That is
where life is lived. So we descended, yes with less of the fight against
gravity stealing our strength but a new dilemma emerging in the context of our
joy at the top.
I found myself even more tired. The glow of summiting remained but I had
given so much to persevere on the way up. Different muscles ached and more pain
was added to the already strained sore spots. But isn't life like that?
We give and give with God's help to overcome but we have fewer reserves for a
while as a result.
So
we get emotional In the least likely of times, snap at those
we love and dread the idea of another challenge coming too soon. As my
legs seemed only to have enough strength to keep moving, my mind nearly
erased all I had enjoyed for the past 5+ hours. But this is
when we must remember again that God uses mountains and all the good and
bad
that comes with them to make us better, stronger and deeper people.
Going
down is a key part of the journey and the growing. It's all part of the
process of being stretched, molded and made better.
I read recently that we would be wiser to spend more of our money
on experiences and less on things. Another mountain climb affirmed for me that
nothing could be further from the truth. What will be your next mountain
experience? It may not be granite but it must be bigger than you are. Think of one now. You can't afford not to.